Ugh...I am so tired, I'm starting to see things in multicolor.

It's been a hell of a week. Not a bad kind of hell, but I've just been getting a ton of work, on top of all of my college stuff, and my brain feels like its going to explode.

I've got 2 papers, notes and projects and regular homework AND college stuff.

At this rate, I'm going to turn into a zombie. D: And I don't wanna be a zombie, they scare me!!


What should I do? I need better time management skills, but I'm not good at that sort of thing...I need help...and sleep...

D: I'm taking the SAT tomorrow. Again.

THIS IS THE THIRD TIME.

I've accepted that my math abilities are subpar at best...but maybe a third time will bring that score up? Just a wee bit?

D: And after I do that I'm spending Sunday filling out applications and working on my portfolio...and then Monday is regular homework day...

...

God. Being a senior kinda sucks.

Does it get better after December? PLEASE SAY YES I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG I CAN TAKE THIS.

And I promise, I PROMISE, I'm working on France's HWZ fic. I am. It'll be done when it's done, I'm really sorry it's taking so long, but my schedule is sort of full and my inspiration is being drained by college...


I'm really, really sorry it's taking so long...I really am. It'll be up soon, I promise!!

Ugh, writer's block is a bitch.

I swear though, I AM working through it!! I'm working on the next bit of HWZ, which is gonna be France-centric, and I'm almost halfway there. So that'll be up sooner or later. And I'm also working on a Spain/S. Italy drabble request, but I need to actually think of a plot for that...but that's gonna be up sometime soon too.

I've just been so exhausted...school's started to overwhelm me, and I've only been back in for about a month! I've got papers, tests, projects, college stuff, clubs, dance, therapy, art, boyfriend...jeez, I like those last two things and I'm still gonna go nuts from overload!!

For anybody whose managed to make it past their senior year of high school without killing themselves: How the hell did you do it? How did you time manage, and what can I do to prevent myself from going completely batshit crazy?


....

Oh. And Halloween is coming up. I need a costume idea, and tips on how to make it. I was thinking of going as Canada, from Hetalia, but idk. I've got boots, glasses, and a polar bear plush...but everything else I'd need to make or buy...and that could be tough.

What are you all doing, and do you have any tips?

...God, I need to go to sleep. Maybe that'll keep my brain from exploding...

Ugh...writers block sucks. I want to write, I do!! I've got all these vague ideas floating about him my head, waiting to be expanded and written, but I can't figure it out!

So, I guess I need help...

I'll put some of my vagueish ideas up here, and maybe you guys can give me a hand? Most of them are HWZ related. Oh, and these aren't titles, these are just the names of the ideas.

1. The Kingdom of Sealand- What I've got for this is that, as a direct result of the zombie war, Sealand, which is basically a floating barge at sea, became...well, successful. They expanded and terraformed and became this big seasteading nation with a population and relations and trade and everything. So...Sealand became a real nation, essentially. BUT AT WHAT COST? :D That's sort of all I've got for that so far...Sealand being big and successful (but Peter is still physically young), and bragging...but I got nothing else. D:
2. The Japanese Evacuation/The Clearing of Japan- Ok, this one is tough, but it's a bit more planned out than the first one. Japan gets completely overrun by the zombies, the population flees to Russia, chaos and sad happens. Japan has to pretty much go to Russia for help, it's all very sad and painful, and it ends with him going back, reclaiming his old culture and ways, and kicking zombie ass samurai style. Problem is, I'm having a tough time filling in the details...
3. The Catacombs- This one is hard mostly because I am having such a HARD FRIGGEN TIME WRITING FRANCE. The Catacomb Battles were extremely tough and srs, and I don't do a good job writing France, he's a bad caricature in my hands...so he needs work. He's even worse to write than England was, and he was a BITCH to write. Assist?

My other ideas aren't so important right now, but they'll probably need fine tuning in the future as well....

TL;DR- Having issues writing, need assistant/assistants.

Oh, and I'm still sick. Joy.

...to make me realize how friggen BORING the internet is.

I mean, REALLY!! I sit here, all day, due to the inability to leave and see people cuz of my rather nasty head cold, and I do friggen NOTHING!! Do a few little things over at the Hetalia dressing room, but nothing consistent.

So, I'm bored...and boredom isn't exactly good for writing...

So, I think I wanna do a RP with somebody. ANYBODY. I haven't done a lot of one on one or small group stuff in a while (not since the insanity that was capslock_atlarp), but I really want to.

SO.

:D Anybody wanna do a Hetalia RP? Just for the fun of it/to keep me from ripping my hair out?
I can probably do America, Canada, England, Lithuania....well, basically anybody not Asian or Poland. :D And I like seeing Russia beat up Lithuania or be sweet to Canada. And maybe zombies there too, to keep my writing side from going dry. But again, I don't care, ANYTHING is good.

Its not a serious long term thing, it's just to keep me from going ABSOLUTELY NUTS.

SO. ANYBODY INTERESTED?

PLEASE? I can't take much more of this....

You know, sometimes I wish I wasn't so cheap. Or, rather, that I actually had cash.

Because I really, REALLY want a paid account. Mostly for the icons, the lack of ads, the ability to edit comments...

Perhaps for Christmas, I shall ask for one.


And my cat? Yeah, he's an idiot of the highest degree. So, he goes to get surgery yesterday for blockage in his large intestine (urinary tract issues, lol). They give him a catheter to help him recover, and he was SUPPOSED to be home on Saturday.


Yeah, so after hours, when he's at the vets by himself? He pulls a retarded and PULLS THE CATHETER OUT.

Now, they have to wait and see if he doesn't need it, or if they need to put it back in and charge us MORE for him.

...Why are animals so stupid sometimes?

Oh. And I'm sick. Ha de fricken ha.

Title: For Queen and Country
Author/Artist: Rea, or geogirl15
Character(s) or Pairing(s): England,mentions of Sealand and America, and the following OCs- Northern Ireland, Southern Ireland, Scotland, and Wales.
Rating: PG-13, violence, language, and bizzare sibling relationships. Also zombies.
Warnings: Violence and warfare, language, an implied crossover (YOU GOTTA FIND IT THOUGH), OCs, craploads of mentions of death, and a bit of angst.
Summary: It is the height of the zombie pandemic, and the United Kingdom goes to war.
Notes: I believe this is the first bit of H War Z that actually takes place DURING the zombie war, without flashing back to it. This is also the first fic to feature England, as well as Arthur's siblings, Ireland, Scotland, Wales, and Northern Ireland.
It was mentioned that the UK was largely unaffected by the zombie war, but I tweaked it a bit so there'd be some fighting and violence, but not a lot. Despite that, Artie and his family came out ok.
Again, I'm hoping to make this chapter a bit less serious, especially considering the last one...

OH. First one to spot the not WWZ related crossover gets a free internet cookie AND a drabble of their choice! If you know me, it should be fairly obvious! :3

( This was coming from the man who could see faries and communicated with unicorns on a regular basis. Who was he to judge the impossible? )

D: Sometimes, I think there may be something wrong with me. I tend to obsess over things too easily, and ever since I got into Hetalia, I CAN'T FRIGGEN STOP.

GOD.

And I thought for a while, hey, it's ok, it's just fiction and stuff!

Except now, I want to go over to the aph dressing room and roleplay as JEANNE D'ARC.

THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME!! I mean, yeah, when I was 8, she was the greatest thing since sliced bread in my eyes and I had like 6 books on her, but that doesn't really excuse my desire to ropleplay a historical figure...

Somebody talk me out of this! Or encourage this, either one. D:

EDIT

Aw, fuck it. I'll do it. She's not an original character, it's not illegal, I'll meet new people, and maybe I'll get a chance to improve my elementary school level french.
please don't beat me up, internet...

Ganked this from lokichan2004, because it seemed like fun.

Pick a number between 1-200, and I'll post the fanart that corresponds to that number. Feel free to pick multiple numbers. :) In fact, picking multiple numbers is encouraged!!
I didn't do ANY of this artwork, it's all from my various travels across the internet. So if you see something that's yours, I swear I didn't steal it D:
There should be no real bias here, but I kind of adore Russia, so there's a lotta him in here...:3 Oh, that crazy vodka loving bastard.

These are being hosted on photobucket, and I really don't plan on deleting them any time soon, but you may want to save them, just in case.
Once a number gets picked, I'll edit the journal so that there aren't a lot of multiples.

Go nuts.

USED NUMBERS
3, 7, 13, 42, 54, 72, 101

Let's talk about '9', a movie set in an post-apocalyptic future where humans are gone and the only living things among the machines are 9 sockdolls with souls.

'9' was....well, to be quite honest, AWESOME.

I was surprised, to be honest, that it was as good as it was. I was concerned that it'd be light on the story and would be all like 'oooh look at us with our big fancy animation'.
And I guess, to a certain degree, it was.

But the story was good, and I liked the characters, which, in a movie like this, is EXTREMELY important. They were all good characters, and it was a good movie. Scared me a number of times, and made me cry at least twice.

But despite the fact it was good, I do have some complaints...

1- the length. Most people complain about their movies being too long, but '9', to me, felt too short!! It made everything seem a bit rushed, especially in the beginning, and while it did slow down a bit near the end, the shortish time length did cause constraints that could have been avoided if they'd just made it longer.

2- the plot. I liked the story, I really did. I just think there was a LOT of backstory that wasn't told, which may have been caused by the time constraints. I was curious. I wanted to know more about the scientist, the chancellor, the war and the machines, where the movie took place, what time frame it was in, why 9 took longer than the other sockdolls to wake up, EVERYTHING!!
They did a good job with what they had, but I really, REALLY wanted more.

3- flashbacks. They did a few, and the one I'm talking about in particular shows how 5 lost his eye. I liked it, it showed how the sockdolls survived while the robot war was going on, but again, I wanted more! Why was 1 always hiding, why did he dislike 2, why was 8 so loyal to 1, how, when, and why did 7, 3 and 4 leave? We weren't told enough about the sockdolls OR the humans, which I think would have helped to give the film more depth.

And I know, there was a lot more background info in the viral marketing campaign, but you can't expect EVERYBODY to follow that! For the common people, I think a lot more backstory and info was needed.

And maybe some more character development, too. 9, 7, and 5 were pretty well rounded, as was 6. 3 and 4, who didn't talk, were harder to show depth with, but they came off ok. 1, 2, and 8 came off a bit one sided, and 8 in particular seemed to be hit hard, with little dialogue, little screentime, and little explanation for why he's the way he is.


But overall? '9' was a good film! Dark, creepy, good. GREAT soundtrack, BEAUTIFUL animation, great voice acting. I had my complaints, yes, but I really did like it.

So that's '9'. Everybody should go see it, because it really is a good film, and it cost a lot of money to make.
If it tanks, good films like it become more difficult to get made, so everybody go support the film! Buy tickets, see it with friends, spread the word!!



AND, a few brief spoilers for the next bit of H War Z. It won't use flashbacks, as it will be set DURING the zombie war. It will star England, and have some OC's there as well.
Instead of flashbacks, there will be a flashFOWARD at the end.

>:3 that is all.

HETALIA FRIENDING MEME

HELLO NEW FRIENDS!

I'm Rea, it's a pleasure to meet you all.

A few notes about me:

- I love to write. It's mostly for my own enjoyment, but I hope everybody else likes it too, so I'm open to feedback, suggestions, all that good stuff.
- I also love to draw. And someday? I'm gonna work for Disney, as a character animator.
Though not a day goes by when I don't ask myself 'WHY DO I WANT TO WORK FOR DISNEY AGAIN?'
- My real life ramblings are usually very boring, and slightly infrequent.
- The majority of my non-real life posts are Hetalia related, though I will occasionally rant and rave about other things. For example, the newest Pokemon games, HeartGold and SoulSilver, just came out in Japan. Expect to see something about that coming up soon.
- This used to be a roleplaying journal. I LIKE ROLEPLAYING.
- When I wrote this journal, I was extremely tired, and running mostly on vanilla-flavored Fudgsicles, so please forgive the ramblings/caplockiness.

It's really a pleasure to meet all you lovely new people, as well as provide a bit more useless info about myself to my other friends! :3

Title: Слова, как тихие дожди, осень (In the Wells of Silence)
Author/Artist: Rea, or geogirl15
Character(s) or Pairing(s): Russia, with mentions of Lithuania, Ukraine, Belarus, and Canada.
Rating: Light R, for implications of violence, religious imagery, implied yaoi, and because this is Russia.
Warnings: Violence, death, religious imagery, conquest, mentions of the Russian Revolution (nothing too detailed), zombies, light yaoi, and implied MPreg.
Summary: Ivan has a crisis of faith.
Notes: Another part of the 'H War Z' series of fanfics, though this one has less to do with zombies and the zombie war and more to do with Russia. It's basically an analysis of my Russia's mind and how he's been affected by everything, etc. It's actually kind of hard to describe...but I like it a lot. Russia's one of my favorite characters, so I can only hope I did him justice.

The title of this fic roughly translates out to 'Words, Like Quiet Rain, Fall' (in the Wells of Silence), which are inspired by lyrics from 'The Sound of Silence'. What this has to do with the fic, I don't know, but I thought it sounded nice.
I worked really, REALLY hard on this part, using an internet dictionary for the Russian in the fic (which may be off...)
It's a bit darker than the other bits, mostly because of the religion.
But I like it.

A NOTE- This fic was not made to offend anybody. I apologize in advance, and remind readers that this wasn't intended to be 'God Bashing'. I don't feel the way the characters portrayed here feel about religion, and my personal views are not reflected here. If you don't like it, then don't read it. I really am not trying to offend anybody.


( ...I am a monster... )

You know, sometimes I wonder why the internet is such a complicated place.

All I wanted to do was find a good Russian-English or English-Russian dictionary, so that when I get my next fic bit up, I don't sound like a complete and total asshole...

It's very difficult to find decent online dictionaries for multiple languages!! D: I had the same problem when I did that Hawaii story a while back, it was REALLY tough finding good Hawaiian language sites!!


So...I guess I need help.

Does anybody have any good language site links they'd be willing to share with me?



...

Also, I think I might be sick.

With either the MUMPS, which by all accounts I should've been vaccinated for ages ago, or HERPES. D: VIRAL HERPES.

AGAIN.
That's a long, unpleasant story, but I really hope it's neither of those and I'm just being paranoid.

Title: Brotherhood
Author/Artist: Rea, or geogirl15
Character(s) or Pairing(s): America and Canada
Rating: PG
Warnings: real name usage, slight angst, and zombies. Always, always zombies.
Summary: After all this time, they're still brothers.
Notes: The reunion of Alfred and Matthew, as mentioned in Al's H-War Z ficlet!! It's sort of setting up other things, and I really wanted to get the brothers together and also give a bit more insight into the war in Canada and the US.
I really tried to make this bit a little lighter, considering that the previous parts have been nothing but DEATH AND ANGST. I hope that shows without coming off as well...bad.
:D Ah well. Enjoy.

( Matt somehow managed to find time to keep his house in working condition AND fight off zombies on a regular basis. Alfred wasn't quite sure how he managed it. )

Whew...
Oh, I am on a friggen ROLL with the writing these days!!

...Granted, I'm probably gonna hit a wall very, very soon, BUT IT'S OK! :D I HAVE PEOPLE FOR THAT SORT OF THING!
AND BY PEOPLE, I MEAN YOU READERS! YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU'D LIKE TO SEE IN H-WAR Z!! :D Cuz it's a relatively flexible fic, and I've got some stuff planned out, but I really do like reader input, so if you guys have anything you want to see at all, be it big or small, just leave it here!

AND.

I still kinda need a beta, to help me with my occasional spelling mistakes, grammar issues, and factual inaccuracies, which I sometimes miss while proofreading on my own. I can't really pay you, and there's no health benefits, but I'd be really grateful if somebody'd like to help, just a little. :D Lemme know if you're interesting.

Sometimes, I really do wonder why I like the Disney Company. I really, really do.

I mean, they're not special! Half the time, they're not even that good!! The majority of their live-action movies are pretty terrible for the most part, they haven't made a good animated film in ages without the involvement of Pixar (though there were some very good parts to 'Bolt' and 'Meet the Robinsons', and 'Treasure Planet' is just awesome, no matter what the box office ended up saying), and...well, they're just MEAN.

They don't treat kids like equals or give them any respect, they dumb down EVERYTHING for them, editing and not even RELEASING certain things for fear of getting the PC Police on their asses (I'm looking at you, 'Song of the South'. D: Really, just slap a 'this was made in a different era' warning on the thing and it'll probably be ok, JEEZ.)

Disney does stupid shit. ALL. THE. TIME. And NOW, they buy Marvel Entertainment...

WHY.

So they can have something for the boys like they have their ridiculous 'Princess' line for the girls? DEAR. LORD.
Marvel doesn't tone their stuff down for kids. It's real, as real as a comic company can get, and they let DISNEY buy them?
What're they gonna do, try to kiddify Wolverine and the rest of the X-Men? Stamp a happy sticker on the tragic backstories of people like Spider-man and Daredevil?

...
*sigh*
Disney....just...just stop. Seriously. You keep doing stuff, you keep making people angry and frustrated and you just don't get it.

Don't even get me STARTED on the issues surrounding 'the Princess and the Frog.'

...GAH. DISNEY...

Title: The Kingdom by the Sea
Author/Artist: Rea, or geogirl15
Character(s) or Pairing(s): Norway and Iceland, brief mentions of the other Nordics, flashback that involve Norway/Iceland
Rating: Lightish R, for yaoi and violence.
Warnings: violence, assisted suicide, death, angst, yaoi, zombies, potential OOC, a sad lack of real names to use, etc.
Summary: the wind came out of the cloud by night, chilling and killing my Annabel Lee. Norway reads a book and remembers.
Notes: Ok, so I said the next part was going to go and deal with Alfred and Matt's meeting...and it was! I got that written and everything!! But then I read 'Lolita' again for the hell of it and I got inspired, just a wee bit.

This is my first real time writing any of the Hetalia characters in great detail, apart from the North American brothers and Russia. Hope I did ok...

D: Oh, I do wish Iceland and Norway had real names for me to use.

The title of the fic, as well as the cut text and a few other quotes, come from the poem 'Annabel Lee', also known as 'The Kingdom by the Sea', by my favorite poet ever, Edgar Allen Poe.

( We loved with a love that was more than love, I and my Annabel Lee... )

Ok, so according to the Hetalia wiki, Norway and Iceland's human names haven't yet been revealed.

Is there some kind of common fanon name used for them?

D:< I may just hate Google right now. They're honestly just as bad as wikipedia sometimes when it comes to inaccuracies...

K, so, I was trying to do some research for my H War Z fic, since I like to be accurate when it comes to things like historical based facts, geography, etc. I had a ton of wikipedia windows open with stuff about some of the states,I had about 3 maps of the western US open, and on top of all of that, I had the zombiepedia website open, to get some in book facts from WWZ. Since I didn't exactly have my copy on me at the time...

And I could've sworn that in WWZ, all the states west of the Rockies were overrun by zombies and were being cleared out after the war, and that the states east of the Rockies were declared a 'Safe Zone'. D: And to be honest, when it comes to things like that, I get confused, because I've seen about 4 or 5 different things where its the states east of the Rockies that get lost, all the states are still there but all have zombie problems, the wester Rocky states are overrun, etc. It gets confusing, all that conflicting info, especially when that conflicting info comes from THE SAME BOOK ><

And on top of that, my stupid maps didn't include other mountain ranges.

D: So, I guess I've got inaccuracies in my last H War Z bit. And for that, I apologize.

...

Maybe it's time I find a proper beta...

....Wow, my Hetalia family is freaky. Though having Hungary as my dad and Austria as my mom....weirdly accurate...
...I think I need another hobby. D: Lest my newest fandom consume my life. At least it's easier to write for Hetalia than it is for Death Note or any of the other things I like.

Oh sweet god...By this time tomorrow morning, I will be a senior in high school. D: I WILL BE GOING TO COLLEGE IN ONE YEAR HOLY SHITSICLES.
Ok, Rea, breathe...it's gonna be ok...you don't have to take the SAT's again, anyway...

Ah well.
Here. Have the results of stress induced writing, the next bit of Hetalia War Z. Starring Alfred Jones! :D

Title: Nightmares and Daydreams
Author/Artist: Rea, or geogirl15
Character(s) or Pairing(s): America, with guest appearances by the states, and mentions of Canada.
Rating: PG-13, for blood and death (albeit in the past.)
Warnings: real name usage, violence, angst, OCs, potential OOCness, flashbacks of the emo kind, zombies, the usual.
Summary: Even heroes have nightmares sometimes.
Notes: The next bit in H War Z, focusing a bit on Alfred Jones post-zombie war. This one is a bit more disjointed, and I don't like it as much as Canada's bit, because there's a lot to cram in here before their meeting. Ah well.
The ficlet gets its title from an episode of 'Avatar: The Last Airbender' (though if you've seen that particular episode, this fic is not as drug induced or cracky as that.)

( He’d lost everything west of the Rockies; His people, his states, his children… )